His Way, My Gain

Things really happen for a reason. I was not asking directly why my vacation is going this way. Yes, I know, I did not plan anything for this month except to reach out for my family, but in that part, I think I haven’t accomplished fully, as well.  But God has His way, He has His marvelous way!

I may have not saved any financial support for the past two years to fully spend for a month or so, but that doesn’t matter. There is a reason why things are happening that way, and one of the reasons is to be closer to my God, and to know Him better.

I believed I was lacking something that is hindering me from what I decided to do. But I am not, yes, I do not have much, in fact, I have just fine to stay indoors most of the days. And what is left to do indoors? Sleep and eat, rest and read, enjoy!

I am not saying that God doesn’t want me to enjoy the earth, no, it is not His will. It is just that this time, He is more concern to my spiritual maturity, knowledge and faith; my spiritual gain, rather than any material gain. Of all the thoughts I ponder and pondering, of all the circumstances and situations I saw and heard, all of it had brought me closer into the knowledge of my God. And though I cannot completely fathom His thoughts and ways, at least this time, He allowed me to see the reality of human nature as Christians supposed not to act and do, for we are new beings. Yes, I was disappointed with what I see, but there is nothing I can do but to ask God to forgive us for we are letting ourselves to be slaves to the sins He already freed us from.  I was disappointed, and at the same time, I am sorry.

Just now, God has His way of telling me, that everything is according to His purpose and order, that I do not need to worry and be in hurry, that all I need is my faith in Him and Him alone. For at the right time, next time, things will not run this way again. Yes, He is still concerned with my spiritual gain, but next time, He promised, it is another lesson the other way around. Isn’t it exciting?

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